The Main Character

I wish I could lay in silence. My brain never shuts the fuck up! I’m constantly fighting my inner dialogue or I’m keeping myself awake long into the night or embarrassing myself all over again from the time I said that really dumb comment seven years ago. My brain is in constant motion, the greatest superpower I’ll ever have and my mortal enemy. I lose my train of thought regularly and get distracted by other passing thoughts. I spend too much time stressing and have paranoia about the worst-case scenario before anything happens. My creative muse and inspiration and my spiral into a depressive state of mind, the wonderful world inside the brain. My brain. I wish I could have silence or reset my mind like a fresh piece of blank paper or treat it like an empty canvas. I want even for thirty minutes, no noise or nonsense.